Metamorphosis in Blue
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I'm so blue, but getting better.
I am constantly surprised by the different stages of sadness that I go through.
I haven't had a good hard cry in a while, but instead I get that frustrated sort of sadness- helpless feeling. Wanting to stomp and shout, but knowing it won't do any good.
I continue to learn lots about my father; the young person he was- the wild and crazy army days...to see him go from that to such a devoted father and husband is just amazing. I have never known such an honor as being his daughter. I feel blessed to have inherited his dark looks, and sarcastic humor. I feel a tie to him, much stronger than this physical separation is.
I genuinely miss him. Miss chatting with him, miss seeing him. These things cannot be healed.
Yet I get messages from him in my dreams- get to see him. I feel him all around me, and know without a doubt- without religion having ANYTHING to do with beliefs- I know he stays in touch. His energy is impossible to ignore.
I love him so incredibly much. Thank you for every moment with him, whoever you are the blessed me with him.
I haven't had a good hard cry in a while, but instead I get that frustrated sort of sadness- helpless feeling. Wanting to stomp and shout, but knowing it won't do any good.
I continue to learn lots about my father; the young person he was- the wild and crazy army days...to see him go from that to such a devoted father and husband is just amazing. I have never known such an honor as being his daughter. I feel blessed to have inherited his dark looks, and sarcastic humor. I feel a tie to him, much stronger than this physical separation is.
I genuinely miss him. Miss chatting with him, miss seeing him. These things cannot be healed.
Yet I get messages from him in my dreams- get to see him. I feel him all around me, and know without a doubt- without religion having ANYTHING to do with beliefs- I know he stays in touch. His energy is impossible to ignore.
I love him so incredibly much. Thank you for every moment with him, whoever you are the blessed me with him.
